Wednesday, January 26, 2005
hmm..
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Saturday, January 22, 2005
went back to rembau for aidiladha. same ol' same ol.
tension gak kengkadang balik kampung. ok la, i ngaku that i dont do much housework - i dont cook and lets face it, im no betty crocker. whenever i do some kitchen work kat kampung, i know that i'd be doing it under watchful eyes of my makciks and pakciks. theyd scrutinize me if i buat pa pe. i think its mainly because ive had my fair share of frying popiah and ikan yang hangus and keras, but that doesnt mean that i would goreng food jadi hangus all the time! i know they mean well when they scrutinize, [i am anak dara of 22 years and i know that nobody wants to eat popiah hangus], but sometimes i have my own way of doing things, and if my way would bring the same result, so tak pe la kan?
and i also have to say that i dont like the way us women have to serve the men, in the kampung context la. my, my, hanizah yang non-conformist and feminist ni has lots of things to say after 1 night of stay at kampung..
i mean, bayangkan la, i was eating dinner with my other cousin, lets call her "sister". her younger brother comes back. terus suruh sister ni amik pinggan kat dapur. so sister has to put her chewing at a hiatus juz to grab a plate for beloved brother (who's in college, btw, bukan nye pre-schooler!)
of course i was a bit annoyed la. so i told the brother, "la, kan kakak kau tengah makan tu, amik la pinggan sendiri, bukan jauh na dapur tu". then he started saying, jokingly (which made my blood naik lagi sket), "its her responsibility". i was juz stunned, i juz said, "hesh, kesian bini kau nanti". terdiam dia. ha, amik ko! padde muko mung!
if i may add, the brother takes after his father very well. if the guys in my family macam tu - chauvinistic, prejudicial and kuno gile - sori la, i dah lama lari rumah.
Alhamdulillah, my dad and my 2 brothers are not such MALE CHAUVINIST PIGS (better known as MCPs). my dad and brothers are fully capable of tending to their own needs. they can even grab their own plate!
its not that we women tak boleh and tak nak tender to the men, we're more than willing to sediakan semuanya, tapi to the EXTENT THAT U HAVE TO STOP EATING JUZ TO GRAB A PLATE FOR THESE MEN - SORI LA!!
i told my dad and mum about this and they said that i cant do anything to change that, it's tradition. well, who says that EVERYBODY has to follow tradition? IF HANIZAH DOESNT WANT TO FOLLOW TRADITION, BIAR LA. bukannye berdosa pun.
(ahem!)
now, im not sure if im still on the top-shelf of eligible anak daras, but so what? i dont see why i should live my life the way OTHERS have lived theirs. i want a strong modern male, who is not a MCP and he must be willing to savour my [tasteless] cooking and my [unique] way of [good] housekeeping. any takers? min? ..min?
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Thursday, January 20, 2005
yesterday went to carrefour with my mum. got hit by pms.
so there i was flipping through loose-leaf writing pads on the 2nd floor, weeping all the way. my cuffs were soaked with my tears (and snot, i think. yucks.)
the weird thing was that i didnt have a sense of malu-ness, crying in public. i didnt even notice if people were looking at me strangely or not. i juz felt like how i always do when im shopping for my stationeries. hmm..
pms hits me every month but it doesnt bother me all that much anymore. i cry and rant and marah whenever i feel like it. tapi i know that it bothers my min. hehe! cant help it la yang.. jangan salahkan saye! salahkan hormone saye!
cian dia..
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Friday, January 14, 2005
hanizah turned vain
[i know that some of my old old friends must be snickering wickedly right now (oi!)]
yeah, yeah, but who can help it? suddenly everyone's talking about lipgloss, jeans that make ur butt perk, sexy killer shoes, fairer skin, etc, etc..
im particularly worried about how i look especially NOW that im in LLB hons. maybe its the stigma that hons students bring that u have to look grown-up and dress smartly and have good manners and all that senseless crap that the westeners brought upon us very conforming malaysians.
until now i have absolutely NO IDEA why etiquette is binding upon us (!!!)
i also realize that i make myself wear ugly underthings juz so that i dont have a VPL
and i sometimes wear impossible shoes juz cuz i think that it goes with my pants
and i wear lipstick because i dont want people to comment that i look pale. cant they see that im pale because we dont get any sun anymore?? i reach school before the sun shines and sit in it all day and i go home when the moon is up.
im 22 but im in a stringy 12-year-old boy's body. my supposed womanly curves are still nowhere to be seen (the last time i checked none of it was on me). not that its really important to have a smoking body but maybe i juz want it juz so i can have a peace of mind.
that brings me to my next point -
Q: Why do women care so much about how they look?
A: Because men make them feel that way. women are born with inherent nature to attract guys. and guys should be spanked cuz they like prettier women. so the rest of us mere female mortals feel so physically inept and we make ourselves up juz to get these people's attention.
i have no idea why im part of this vain mortals. i thought im a non-conformist..
i need soul searching. but i cant even watch oprah anymore!!!
Friday, January 14, 2005
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
i like the way we malaysians turn to religion at events of distress. i like seeing religious people, whatever religion they are, faithfully offer their prayers at mosques / temples / churches / etc to the tsunami victims. i love being in the ambiance like this one. so peaceful..
may Allah bless the perished and give peace and good health to the living. Amin..
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
dr lim, miss liza, judge hanum with the rest of the showerless mooters eating at penang street
the night after the mooting. defeated but still hungry
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
in the shah alam high court on the day of the lawasia mooting (mazia, daud, me, kelly, dr lim, faiz, zaim and dod)
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
mazia, dod and lil ol me
held at the grand blue wave. the food was ok la..kot (hehe!). the emcee announced UM as the winner of the competition. of course la, the final was um vs. um. but our very own faiz won the best mooter. terer la that guy..
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
with dato wahab patail and wife
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
the birthday of one of the most beautiful person i know
elin finally turned 22 on the 28th of december tapi lambat letak kat blog cuz tak sempat. enjoy every bit of it, elin cuz kejap lagi ko nak tua dah hahaha! mmuah!
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Monday, January 10, 2005
phuket
Monday, January 10, 2005
Saturday, January 01, 2005
many countries were hit by tsunami this week. MasyaAllah..
the worst country hit by tsunami is acheh. i saw the before and after satellite pictures of acheh and memang totally habis semua! takde bangunan langsung. everythings flattened out! about 400,000 ppl died kat situ. tak sampai hati nak tengok the pictures..
dah la the rescue workers couldnt reach some places in acheh, especially the places which are worst hit, because the damage is so terrible.
juz imagine, one day u have ur whole family and all of ur friends, then the next day, sorang pun takde..
malaysia is a bit lucky if compared to acheh la. mainly because malaysia is geographically 'covered' by acheh, so the wave that hit malaysia wasnt as bad as the one that hit acheh. also because malaysians can afford to supply medical aids, shelter and food to the victims.
what is there left to say? learn how to swim?
Saturday, January 01, 2005
tsunami in penang
Saturday, January 01, 2005
