Sunday, October 31, 2004
i remember when i was living in kota kinabalu, a close family friend auntie minah on a few occasions brought me and my mum to this home for kanak-kanak istimewa. i remember having no idea what we were doing there but i remember feeling scared of the kids there, especially the extra friendly kids with either down syndrome or cerebral palsy (cant recall) - they always wanted to hug people! and i was always surprised cuz they always managed to come up behind me ever so quietly.. and then grab me! then i would squeal and run away.. how stupid and naive i was to do that! of course i was stupid and naive - i was 5!
now i dunno why i always have this strong urge to do volunteering work. thanks to auntie minah, it might be.
when i was in form 3 i wanted to join greenpeace. of course that wasnt possible because that body doesnt exist in malaysia. not that i know of. but their passion for saving animals and the environment managed to bring them everywhere! i loved watching them holding up placards at a picket in brazil and catching a huge fishing boat in japan by only a small motorboat juz so they can object to whale fishing (by pasting a massive sticker on the fishing boat). remember when sarawak had that bakun dam which was majorly criticized by environmentalists? one environmentalist flew in a parachute right into the lawn of a sarawakian menteri whilst the menteri was having a little party! how cool is that! i dunno if that was the brain product of a greenpeace volunteer but anyways the fellar had to serve jail sentence for believing in the right thing. whoever u are, i salute u, mate!
when i was either form 4 or 5, i asked my mum if i could have $50 so that i could join mercy. of course she said no! no mother in her right mind would allow her daughter to go to war-torn countries juz to distribute food and stuff! but if i was allowed, maybe i wouldve gone to afghanistan or iraq or north korea or india or darfur. maybe i wouldnt have lived to tell my story but it wouldve been great cuz its juz what i always wanted to do. maybe a little bit on the edgy side but nonetheless, its always better to do something u have passion for than to do something that u dont (like studying law!)
i know that if i join mercy there would be a possibility of being sent to war-torn countries (they dont juz send doctors u know!), even if i might start with tasks in malaysia like packing food and blankets and stuff. i would love to go to war-torn countries to help people but i know that i would piss in my pants whenever i hear bombs and machineguns.
so the closest i got to joining mercy was joining their yahoogroups! and sometimes it tears me apart whenever they message goes like "volunteers needed for iraq - urgent!". SIGH..
now i decided to join amnesty international. a friend introduced me to it cuz theyre having a charity drive in subang in november. she hasnt replied to my email yet and its been a month! tak jadi kot.. anyways, its too close to raya so maybe i'll join after.
my parents slalu marah i cuz sometimes i am, as they put it, "humanitarian sangat" (oh puhleeze!!). i would argue with them to defend the newspaper delivery guy, or help an old man yang kena stroke in the middle of a dangerously empty padang bersemak-samun (i think it was a stroke), or go out of my route to jemput kawan somewhere sampai keta kena eksiden, or spend my very last penny on a present for a friend. of course la they would marah cuz theyre the ones who had to pay for my "deeds" (heheheh!). but i always reply back "mak ngan ayah la yang ajar anis jadi baik macam ni". wicked tak? humanitarian la sangat!
but i do get stepped on sometimes, especially when i offer myself too much. macam ada la kawan dulu-dulu yang "kasi siku mintak peha" (betul ke peribahasa ni? help!). kasi kaki kang! tapi i ikhlas-ly helped nonetheless. close friends i really dont mind helping tapi yang "automatic friends" ni yang malas sket - friends yang jarang layan i, tapi suddenly layan cuz nak mintak favour. then after that buat-buat tak kenal. huh nyampah!
anyways i would always carry that urge to join a volunteer body. i remember being in elementary school and having this dream (the conscious kind) of marrying a tokeh minyak arab and being his 3rd wife juz so that i could get my hands on his money and build a home for sick babies who were borne by drug addict mother and stuff like that. the dream hasnt died yet! (yay!)
i wonder why rich f*cks (as my friend likes to call it) who have lots and lots of money to spend on yachts or their 4th villa in dubai or unnecessary things like buying dresses worth $10,000 worn by elizabeth hurley, do not actually spare some to build something humanitarian.
(i know am and far would cringe on this) i have actually written on an online malaysian entertainment magazine criticizing siti nurhaliza as to why she spent her million on contact lenses and hair-dyes and BMWs (that she doesnt even drive!) and "kenapa siti tak ada kesedaran nak bina rumah kebajikan" (as i think ive put it). MUAHAHAHA! tahpapetah! tak relevant langsung! jahat la anis ni. but that was years ago (wink! wink!)
i have loads more to write but its 7 am and i look absolutely stunning in my medusa hairdo and my pajamas so im going back to sleep. see ya when i wake up at 2 pm!
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Friday, October 29, 2004
please pray for arafat. please pray for palestin. i know that ppl in masjidil haram have been praying for palestin everyday for years, especially masa doa qunut dalam solat subuh (their mazhab takde doa qunut like ours. theirs are optional)
please include palestin in ur prayers. may Allah help them. amin..
Friday, October 29, 2004
haritu pegi ou ngan pacik muhaimin korang cuz nak tengok the terminal. best sangat citer dia! takdela sedey sangat, klaka ada la.nak tengok lagi!
nway, masa jalan tu, my sandal putus. tahpape! panic kejap, tapi nasib baik kat ou yang ada banyak kedai kasut (if kat pasar ke, mampuih den!). so aku pun terpakse la duduk kat bench. pastu kena buat muka damsel in distress tahap sexy sket, nak mintak muhaimin belikan sandal untuk aku. berjaye! heeheehee! so dia pun pegi la belikan sengsorang while aku duduk kat bench situ.
kesian dia. from tingkat atas skali kat u parkson kena turun bawah skali. dah la tak tau mende pasal kasut pompuan, tahap kena interview kakak salesgirl tu, "kak, pompuan suka kasut macam mana ah?". pastu kena pilih kaler lagi. pastu kena pilih saiz lagi. pastu kena tanye harga plak. dia cakap ramai salesgirl tengok dia, bukan sebab dia hensem, tapi sebab orang pelik tengok dia beli kasut pompuan sorang-sorang, banyak soal plak tuh!
in the end, dapat jugak belikan kasut untuk akuk. bleh tahan la. my type of shoes. terer la pacik!
so muhaimin jadi hero hari tu! so tengok la movie dengan sandal yang baru kikiki!
then masa nak pegi parking lot masa nak balik, muhaimin buat-buat halang aku kuar lif. pastu pintu pun nak tutup tapi dia sempat kuar. so aku je la sorang-sorang dalam lif tu, kena turun balik sampai bawah skali, baru naik balik tingkat atas. hesh!
taktau la muhaimin tu jenis hero apa, kejap save akuk, kejap tak kasi aku kuar lif.. (hahhaha!)
papepun, best couple ngan muhaimin cuz he keeps amusing me everyday. mmuah!
Friday, October 29, 2004
Monday, October 25, 2004
1) mak andam bleh determine ur virginity. why on earth would Allah give mak andams such high powers? again, im stressing, they know by reading ur face. its purely psychological.
2) tak leh potong kuku time period. Quran tak cakap pun.
3) makan leher ayam will make u teleng on ur wedding day. the think is, our neneks tak kasi makan leher ayam cuz its nice. they want it. so thats why diorang cakap macam tu.
4) people who have think hairs are sexually ganas. anis okay je. haha!
5) tuang air sket on ur plate after meals will bring u rezeki. it would only make the plate scrubbing easier.
6) adik-beradik laki (both) or perempuan (both) cannot get married on the same day. this is only because it would be a hassle if buat camtu. imagine eh, both of ur sons kena gi akad nikah on the same day, or both of ur daughters kena duduk kat bilik tunggu kena sarung cincin. imagine the hassle their mother has to go through..
7) taking pictures of ur cat would kill it later. uhh.. mende ni? ..killer flashlights?
8) u know how when u lie down on ur stomach, sometimes u put ur feet facing upwards? i was told when i was small that its not nice to do that cuz ur feet would face God. now i juz think that that was kinda dumb cuz God is everywhere, not juz up there. but im not sure about this one. still waiting to be convinced..
9) taking pictures tiga orang. ppl say the one in the middle will berpisah with the other 2 by her side. kinda scepticalon this one. ppl say this one is true. dunno la.. but i still take pics, even if 3 orang.
susah nak convince hanizah kan? my virgo trait says that i wont believe in things unless ada concrete proof. but then again, i percaye plak star sign sume2 tu. fickle. oh well.. if any of u ppl can convince me, try (heh heh heh)
Monday, October 25, 2004
Friday, October 22, 2004
its hard living in subang. especially when u have to put up with the traffic.
i remember in the early 1990s when my family and i juz moved here from kota kinabalu, when i can literally lie down on the jalan kewajipan and not worry about traffic running me over cuz there werent many cars back then. even where there was only 2 lanes, there was no traffic jam.
then came mid 1990s when this whole traffic jam fiasco started - USJ started to open and started to develop bigger and bigger and bigger. it's still developing as we speak.
I BLAME USJ FOR THE TRAFFIC JAMS. well, not the residents la but the developer (read this, SIME UEP people). they juz keep building houses there when they know that theres only one or two main road going in and out of subang. now theres traffic jam everyday and everywhere. even at non-peak hours like 10.30 am and pm, the roads are still clogged up with vehicles.
i heard a rumour once about samy vellu coming to visit subang and he said "no wonder la theres always a jam. each house has 3-4 cars". i expected something more from u mister samy vellu. instead of blaming it on people's freedom to property, why didnt u suggest something? ure smart and u should know better.
this morning, i hit a traffic policeman. not my fault, he was standing right in the middle of the road! and i was driving like 7 km/h so before u start labelling me as vile, hear me out first:
subang is currently undergoing lots of construction works, mainly cuz of the stupid NPE and some other by MPSJ. so many roads are closed and i had to charge through traffic this morning juz to go to the pasar at SS 13. what would take me 7 minutes took me almost half an hour.
i was on my way back already when i had to go for an extra 300 meters juz to find a u-turn. i went by lots of roads that unnaturally forbade u-turns so i went on, still in the same lane (right lane). suddenly everyone started turning right to shah alam. i went on forward, signalled to the left of course but nobody would let me pass (honestly, subang people are true SINGAPOREANS! kiasu heart and soul !!!) and right in front of me was this policeman. he didnt let me pass and he firmly signalled me to go to shah alam. WHAT MADNESS !!!! i wasnt about to GO TO SHAH ALAM FOR NOTHING !!!!!
so we argued by hand signals and as i went forward to let people behind me pass (i managed to go straight when everyone else turned right), the stupid policeman stood right in front of me and walking towards me. so of course la he hit my car! HE HIT MY CAR!! and he acted as if i ran him over. at 7 km/h?? ..sigh.. i cant believe im wasting my life putting up with imbeciles..
so of course la we argued! he asked for my licence. i had to apologize to him for HIM HITTING MY CAR !!! luckily after some more argument, he juz let me off the hook without a ticket. HAH! nasib baik...
sigh.. how long do i have to put up with life like this? i have this instinct feeling that im not going to see myself grow old, so why should i waste my life with wasteless things like this? GIVE ME BACK MY OLD SUBANG JAYA!!! my sweet, quiet subang jaya.. huhu!!!
Friday, October 22, 2004
Monday, October 18, 2004
just had my last exam paper on friday. the last paper for this semester. DOAKANLAAA.. puh! puh! puh!
saturday went for dinner at hartz pyramid with my angels. and bapak, dayah, thariq, youhaniz and youhaniz's girlfriend (lupa lagi nama dia). hyo..rugi la makan buffet. my stomach kan, bak kata elin, satu suap dah penuh dah satu perut. hwaa!! still struggling to grow some fat. i hate being skinny!
cute la tengok dayah and thariq.. dulu i used to think that thariq ni bukan boyfriend material but after seeing him with dayah, i cant help but join being giddy! macam kita plak yang baru fall in love!
that night had a sleepover at sharon (am-far-naem-iza's bachelor pad). milia came with sandwich yang sangat sedap. elin bought her ps2. cool! so i tried to play this semi-porn game. tah pape tah game tuh! it's a bout this loser who tries to seduce some college girls by playing trampoline and tossing coins. and the game's full of girls with big boobs. the guy who made it mesti pervert nak mampos. eeyuck!
heheh..yuck-yuck pun main jugak tu! juz curious to see what would happen in the next level. tapi tak dapat la. elok la.. bulan puasa.. mana bleh tengok porn. MUAHAHAAHA!!!!
then there's this thrilling game called 'forbidden siren'. takut gile! me, am and naem tejerit-jerit main kul 3 pagi! kesian neighbour sebelah tu. dah la pregnant.
then today i went with dod to medan mara, pertama, sogo and klcc. habih satu kl round! teman dod to meet with auntie irene cuz its her birthday today and dod nak kasi present.
tried looking for my shoes. tapi tak dapat! its either too high, loose, outrageous or skinny. dont these shoemakers know how to make perfect shoes!! hows a girl to live without her shoes la?!?!?
now im tired. theres nothing good on tv. why masa nak exam sume tv show best-best? WHY?
oh well. might as well tido. kalau ada game porn tu best gak..
Monday, October 18, 2004
Friday, October 08, 2004
birthday babe
i thank God every day for the guy who always makes me feel beautiful. happy birthday cayang!
Friday, October 08, 2004
Monday, October 04, 2004
its a slap right in the face when there are some people who u thought are ur "friends" talk bad about u behind ur back
whats worse is they talk about ur closest friends too
whats WORST is when ur closest friends have never done anything to any of them. puji-puji ikhlas, think the highest of them ada la..
the most horrible thing is they think they know us, but obviously they don't. not at all. so who gave u ppl the privilege of talking about us like u know us so well?
jeles ke ngan kitorang sampai kena cakap benda-benda tak baik pasal kitorang? ada yang tak puas hati ke? datang la to our faces and say it. takut?
tak sangka ek, ada jugak orang macam ni around us. tapi bila depan kitorang kemain manisssss lagi...
whats worse is they talk about ur closest friends too
whats WORST is when ur closest friends have never done anything to any of them. puji-puji ikhlas, think the highest of them ada la..
the most horrible thing is they think they know us, but obviously they don't. not at all. so who gave u ppl the privilege of talking about us like u know us so well?
jeles ke ngan kitorang sampai kena cakap benda-benda tak baik pasal kitorang? ada yang tak puas hati ke? datang la to our faces and say it. takut?
tak sangka ek, ada jugak orang macam ni around us. tapi bila depan kitorang kemain manisssss lagi...
satu muka je dah la, takyah nak twoface plak ok?
i used to have the highest respect for these people. i used to think these people lagi baik dari my angels. but Alhamdulillah, Tuhan tunjuk jugak sape kawan kita
i used to have the highest respect for these people. i used to think these people lagi baik dari my angels. but Alhamdulillah, Tuhan tunjuk jugak sape kawan kita
i dont know about the others tapi im not gonna do anything to these people. i'll juz treat them like normal. i dont hate them, never had problems with them
kepada orang yang tiba-tiba terasa macam ada cili berapi dalam mulut tu, insapla..
pity, pity
Monday, October 04, 2004
party!
sorry it took me so long to post an entry kat blog ni. busy busy! now tengah exam sebenarnya, tapi nak lepas gian on the net jap hehe... ok, that actually sounds disgusting..
our own dinner..sigh..bestnye.... organized by our beloved angel iza. mak ai, perfectionist nye iza ni.. sebab tu la best party tu! best gile!
and dapat dengar my min nyanyi. haha! cute la! mesti la, my favourite singer! heh!
Monday, October 04, 2004
