A N I Z W H I N E S

Saturday, December 18, 2004

wow, how long has it been since i last blogged? time goes by very fast these days..

i need to vent

(if ure looking for something sunny and optimistic, go surf somewhere else)

i dont like waking up at 6.45 every morning. saturdays are the worst!
i dont like the routine breakfast that kak yah prepares (oh wait! she doesnt prepare anything, silly me! the breakfast menu is roti, roti and roti).
i dont like the sick atmosphere in my classroom. 2 people passed out already, one was admitted to the hospital, many people are coughing and getting fever. my flu is recovering, thank God!
i dont like having to sleep in the wee hours of morn (cuz im the type of person who juz HAS to have not less than 7 hours of sleep)
i dont like the stress, the tension, the fatigue. its making me feel and look old.
i dont like the way my eyebrows knit together almost all the time. gives me a headache.
i dont like how im easily angered by petty things.
i dont like the way my spoken english is getting retarded more and more by the minute. i really miss having english-speaking chinese and indian friends around.
i dont like having to blow off the plans my family and friends have already made juz because i have work to do at school.
i dont like how my social life is becoming non-existent by the minute.
i dont like to feel scared driving home at night.
i dont like not being able to go shopping whenever i have (and want) to.

i dont like lots of things, obviously.

it juz dawned on me on how horrible i let my life get. i have no control over it! mr bart told me today that i should smile in the morning. and i cant believe how difficult doing juz that! sigh.. i need my life back..

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Saturday, December 04, 2004

juz had my first week in the hons programme. penat wo!

my schedule is so tak best, i even have classes until 5 pm on saturdays. night classes definitely ada la, if takde pun i have to stay back late buat keje. well, at least i have the chance to glimpse at how my life is going to be like from now until i pencen (yikes!!!).

but my classroom is great, ada aircond and fully carpeted. the bestest thing is dapat satu firm ngan am, far, dod and mazia = Marliza & Associates. cool nye rase.. hopefully our beloved mr basir wont split us into different groups or firms, hopefully until habis part 2 hons.

one of the lecturers called practicing the law as a "game". never thought of the LAW practice like that before! i juz love it when words of wisdom hit me like that!

hons is like what i thought it would be, only that it still hasnt gone on its full scale yet - cuz its still the first week. the work, hectic-ness, late nights spent at skul, money rushing down the drain, one-meal-a-day routine, getting skinnier by the minute..

but im not complaining!

there were times when i thought about how tak layak i am to masuk hons, tapi Alhamdulillah, Allah tolong jugak hanizah yang tak seberapa ni. tapi nonetheless banyak sangat encouragement, especially from ayah and mak. bertuahnye rase..

Tip to get what u want: buat semayang hajat hari-hari. it truly TRULY works!!

Saturday, December 04, 2004