Thursday, May 06, 2004
the nine-angels.blogspot cant be opened!!! so many problems..invitation error la.. im anxious to start writing in it and i cant...
gonna go to that urban protection tactics programme this sunday, which is also mothers day. we're sticking to the usual routine for mothers day, as we had 3-4 years back - just buy a cake. its nice, its filling and we dont have to rack our brains out to think of specific gifts to buy..
i just realized, after reading my past 2 entries here that I CANT WRITE!!! IM A BORING PERSON!!! my life feels so meaningless and im a waste of space on earth.. cant help it. yeah, i know im pessimistic, so what can i do huh? i tried to change to be more positive but i obviously failed..
ive always written in journals when i was in school, mostly about my so-called 'love' relationships and family, and i thought it was good and interesting..something that my cucu would wanna read..(cucu.. heheh!) but after reading am's and dod's blog and some other's, i feel so inept. maybe i shouldnt make this blog thing public, to spare the embarrassment for myself...but im still determined to write interesting stuff..we'll see
watched oprah today. she had donald trump as her guest and she talked about how she just love investing on land cuz she said "God dont make them lands anymore" and i just realized that she makes a strong point! ive never looked at things that way before...which brings me to the realisation that im a waste of space..maybe God dont make ppl like me anymore, but who cares rite? RITE??? ..see, so ones answering
this is stupid
i read adam's bulletin board on friendster about manners. i used to pride myself (quietly) that i have good manners. not excellent, but passable la. but now i just dont know anymore.. im socially inept, too quiet, boring personality, not smart enough to carry on a good conversation.. IM SERIOSULY SURPRISED THAT I HAVE FRIENDS! CLOSE FRIENDS!!! but Alhamdulillah..what would i do without u ppl - mollie, amliy, dod, am, farah, iza, naem, mazia, ana, elin.. well, elin considers herself my enemy, but you know what they say, elin "keep your friends close and your enemies closer" haha!! too bad, elin, im gonna stick by u and with u no matter what, just like i would with all the others. i'll try anyway
im sick of trying to download blogskins. the last time i tried, my comp was infected with virus, and we had to reformat the whole thing!!! stupid viruses! so as u can see, its not my fault that my blog looks so damn, SO DAMN boring..blame those damn viruses!! (remember what i said about manners? just read my language here - do i have manners? i think not anymore)
im just gonna write about this dream i had last night. mollie and i was at this lake or river or something and emma was with us. we had to cross to the other side but our boat sunk, so we had to swim. what does that mean? from what i heard, i think it means that the 3 of us are gonna face some difficulties together. which is pretty weird, since emma and i arent friends anymore. what are we gonna face together then?? hmm...if this interpretation is true, cant wait to see what God has in store for me.
im just gonna stop here. i hope i look forward in writing more of this blog thingy. bye then
Thursday, May 06, 2004
